Its me againnnn

 Hi sayang, its me again!

Heee hi sayang..its 1//1/2023 today sayang, which means its our end of 2nd month kan sayang..heee..sayang do you realised in just two months, soooooo many things has happen,like soooooooo many that i'm wondering how come in a short time so many things could crumple in.

Its started with happy memories, I am very happy with you sayang, we spend so much time together,everyday that i thought i have been together with you for a long time already. Thank you for making me happy sayang..I couldnt express how much I am happy to be with you..I keep everything in my memories, which no one could take it,no one can stole from me..I'm genuinely happy to be with you sayang..

Eventhough we choose this date, but I 've fallen for you wayy before that,even I dont realised when, I only realised I feel something when I realised I cannot lose you..Just to think about it already freaking me out. Thank you sayang, I appreciate every single moment we spend together.

I know things are hard now sayang, you are having a very hard time, and I,who supposed to support you fully but sometimes I also make u sad with my overthinking..sayang, I'm usually not this kind of person, u know I dont do a lot of thinking right, but then I realised I've started to become the person that I'm really afraid of becoming, 'me' in the past..I've managed to put aside 'me' in the past before, but now its coming back, which means I've fall harder then what I should be..but you know sayang, I realised the past 'me' is so suffocating that even I cannot handle it..so, I've been thinking and thinking and I know I need to change..I should be able to control myself and I need to fix me..so, I'm trying my best now sayang, to love you in a right way, through the hard times and also happy times..I'm trying my best to be the best version of me for you..I'm sorry okay sayang?I'm sorry I'm making you sad with my behaviour..

Whats important now is for you to be healthy sayang..and I should understand and support you along the way..I'll always stay by your side okay sayang?lets fight for a brighter rainbow okay sayang?saya sayang awak..keep yourself strong sayanggg

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